Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Dear Baby C

A letter to Baby C--

Sweet baby you have no idea how much Mommy has prayed for you. Before we even knew about you, you were constantly in my prayers. Right now mommy is praying that you are growing healthy and strong and that you make a safe arrival in September. I couldn't imagine a better birthday present than you. Mommy constantly worries about you too. I want nothing more than to be holding you in my arms in 33 weeks. Right now all Momma can think about is your ultrasound on Tuesday. Momma is praying to see a good, strong heartbeat and a healthy little bean that is growing up a storm. I'm already "nesting" by browsing Pinterest for ideas for your nursery and different photos to take. The hardest thing for Momma right now is not being able to protect you. This waiting is really testing my patience and truthfully, my faith. It's hard for me to turn over my worries. I just want to know that you are ok and growing like you should be. Sometimes you almost seem too good to be true. I'm so in love with you already, yet I'm so scared to let myself get attached to the idea of another baby in the house. I guess that's my way of trying to protect myself, but it's useless. I'm already so attached, so excited, and so in love with you my little bean. Your ultrasound Tuesday fills me with so many emotions. I'm excited to see you again. I'm terrified to look at the screen because I'm scared I won't see that flicker I'm desperate to see. I dread going in that room because it reminds me of the time I spent crying in there grieving over your big brother. At the same time, I'm praying that those memories change to happy ones filled with memories of watching you grow. I pray that you know how much you are loved and wanted here. Your big sister can't wait to meet you and talks about you ALL the time. She thinks you are a girl--guess we will see! I know your big brother is watching down over you. I can't wait to see you again Tuesday and can't wait to meet you in September. Love you so much Baby C!

Love,
Momma

I pray this is the first of many letters to Baby C throughout NINE months of pregnancy.

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I love hearing from you :)