Monday, August 11, 2014

August 10th

Yesterday was another one. Another day in August that draws my mind toward Barrett with such a powerful force that it consumes me.
On August 10, 2012 we had our gender reveal for Barrett with a Pinterest worthy cake and decorations.

We had a great time full of smiles and laughs telling our family that the first grandson/great-grandson was on the way. We revealed his name with a cute little onesie that I will always cherish.
It was such a happy day, and in my mind I try to soak up those memories of my last few days alive with him.
August 10th fell on a Sunday this year and instead of my tattered red Bible, I reached for my beautiful Bible that a precious friend gave me in memory of Barrett. It seemed like another way I could carry him with me yesterday. It is a reminder to me of where he is waiting on me and that I will see him again.
August hurts so bad. But I am blessed. I am so thankful that God chose me to be his mommy.
There will be many more Barrett posts this month because this is his month. He consumes my thoughts. But I don't write them for your sympathy. Sympathy doesn't ease the pain. I write them because I need to keep his name alive. I want people to read his name and speak his name. And in turn, I want them to speak His name.
Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward.
Psalm 127:3
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