Tuesday, August 27, 2013

As My Daughters Grow Up

I did not watch the VMA's this week. In fact, I was sleeping while the rest of the world was being shocked by the performance of Miley Cyrus. I awoke the next morning to the constant chatter of it on social media. I finally broke down and watched the video, but I never could have prepared myself for what I would see.
This was not the Miley Cyrus that had, just years before, been a long haired beauty on the Disney Channel with her dad trying to hide the fact that she was Hannah Montana. This was not the girl that I watched little girls everywhere imitate and look up to.

The "girl" I saw on television this week was one who was desperate for any kind of attention she could get. Unfortunately, she is chasing after it in the wrong way and seeking the wrong attention. It made me sad--mostly because many people watching could see that, while she still can't. It's disappointing, and one has to wonder, what went wrong? What happened to Miley Cyrus?
As I watched the video of Miley's performance, I thought about my own daughters. I watched and I thought "This is only the beginning of the world my daughters are about to grow up in", and I feared for them. If anything, I hope that Miley has taught me something as a parent that I can pass on to my own girls.

This week, Miley Cyrus taught me how important it is to ensure that my daughters never feel like they have to use their bodies to get any kind of attention. I pray that my daughters grow up to be young women who are full of respect for themselves. I pray that they will be the type of women who see a young woman like Miley Cyrus and pray for her rather than turning to social media simply to berate her.
This whole "event" has drawn my focus onto how I will establish a foundation with my girls on which they can stand and know that acting in this way is not something they should ever stoop to. I want that foundation to be Jesus.

“All things are lawful for me,” but not all things are helpful. “All things are lawful for me,” but I will not be enslaved by anything. “Food is meant for the stomach and the stomach for food”—and God will destroy both one and the other. The body is not meant for sexual immorality, but for the Lord, and the Lord for the body. And God raised the Lord and will also raise us up by his power. Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ? Shall I then take the members of Christ and make them members of a prostitute? Never! Or do you not know that he who is joined to a prostitute becomes one body with her? For, as it is written, “The two will become one flesh.” But he who is joined to the Lord becomes one spirit with him. Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body. Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body.
—1 Corinthians 6:9-20 
They have become callous and have given themselves up to sensuality, greedy to practice every kind of impurity. But that is not the way you learned Christ!— assuming that you have heard about him and were taught in him, as the truth is in Jesus, to put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.
—Ephesians 4:19-24 
As my daughters grow up, I pray that they will cling to these truths. I pray that they grow into Godly young women who seek after Him first in everything. I pray that they never forget that they were bought with a price paid by our Savior--a price beyond anything we could ever fathom.

I look at my innocent little girl and her rose colored view of the world she still possesses and the thought of her losing that absolutely breaks my heart to the point of tears. I wish she didn't have to grow up, but she does, and Cate will too. They will grow up in a tarnished world that will only become more so with time. They will grow up in a world where performances like what the world was exposed to the other night will be considered the norm. In that world, I pray that my girls are the outcasts. I pray that they are different and that their differences allow them a platform to stand out and up for Christ.

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Thursday, August 22, 2013

The Worst Day of my Life

One year ago today was the worst day of my life. I can't believe it's been a year. On August 22, 2012, I was told that my precious, and oh so wanted, baby boy no longer had a heartbeat. I was sent home to pack and come back to the hospital to be induced and spend the night in labor knowing I would never hear that precious newborn cry.
I've spent the last two weeks reflecting on this past year. It's amazing how much of an impact one year can have on a person and on the family unit. Because of events on this day in August one year ago, my family will never be the same. We will always be missing a huge piece, but at the same time I can't imagine how we could possibly be anymore whole than we are today.
Barrett has given and continues to give so much to my family and to people all over the world.
At this moment, I think back to where I was at this time last year. I was getting ready for the doctor appointment that would turn my entire world upside down. I think of the days that followed and the cloud of fog that surrounded me for so long in the days after his death.
And then I look at where I am today. I look at my belly that is almost 37 weeks along in pregnancy. I feel Barrett's little sister pushing on my ribs with her feet. She is our rainbow baby.
God sent the rainbow after the flood. It signifies a promise, and it signifies a hope. Cate has been every bit of that description to us. She has been our promise from God that He doesn't leave you even in the toughest times and that He is always faithful. She is our promise that good things can come from the darkest of storms. Cate is our hope of life to come and I thank God for her and Audrey every day. I love all three of my babies and I can think of no greater blessing in this life than to be a mom.
One year after our little boy passed away, Brent and I are on completely different paths than we were at that time. Different careers, a new house, and many new opportunities on the horizon. With the help of our Savior, we have moved forward as Believers, as a family, and as individuals. We have moved forward but we have not moved on. Barrett is still included as part of our family in everything we do and that's how it will continue to be.
I can't believe tomorrow will be his birthday already. Time really does fly. Thank you to all of you who have followed our journey here for the last year--I hope you stick with us to see where God and Barrett will take us next!

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Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Love is in the Air

Those who read here frequently may have noticed that it's been quiet around here lately. That's because I've been busy with wedding festivities for a friend! My sweet friend, Amanda, is now MARRIED to her best friend and I was so honored to stand by her side on Saturday.
Congrats you two!!!
For her bachelorette trip, we went to Bellingrath Gardens. We were supposed to take a river cruise, but the boat was broke down that morning so we enjoyed the beauty of the gardens instead and spent the evening just relaxing away from it all.
Here are some pictures from Bellingrath and a few wedding snapshots!

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Tuesday, August 6, 2013

34 Weeks {Bumpdate}

On Sunday I hit 34 weeks in this pregnancy. Only 6 weeks to go and I am READY! Well, physically I am ready. I still have some things to do before she gets here, so she definitely needs to hold on at least four more weeks!
Last week we got her car seat properly installed alongside Audrey's and this weekend I packed my hospital bag except for her clothes which I am washing to pack as well.
Having two car seats in my car and that hospital bag sitting there ready to go are making this even more real! I am so excited and admittedly, still nervous even though we have made it this far. Hopefully I can breathe once I am finally holding my precious rainbow baby.
At this point in my pregnancy, Cate loves to use my ribs as monkey bars. She puts her feet on my ribs and pushes (and boy is she strong). I think she does it because she knows it will make me squirm!
She has "dropped" and I can finally breathe again, although my bladder is now paying the consequences.
My cravings lately? Still milk. Other than that, I just eat whatever for the most part. I have craved grapes a few times though and I can pack them down!!!
Six more weeks--the countdown is on!
Due Date is Sept 15--get your guesses in now--when do you think she will be born?
Enter your guesses HERE using the game name "GuessesForCate"
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