Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Just the Right Thing

Today was one of those days where God sent me just what I needed to read and hear. I've been dealing with some things the past few months and more specifically the last few weeks and days. I've been wrestling with different things--a big decision and how to handle another situation.

This morning I was reading and ended up in Galatians. Galatians 1:10 is a verse I know very well, but here is one thing I've learned: Even the verses you "know" the best can still hit you in a different way over and over again. God is good.

Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.
Galatians 1:10 

I can't even describe how much I needed to read that. I don't know why we worry so much about what other people think, but we do and I'm especially bad about it. When I can tell someone is mad at me or upset with me it will eat me alive, even if I know I did the right thing. There have been times lately where my heart has questioned whether I did the right thing or not because of the way people are treating me even though logically I know I did. I've been letting my focus be drawn away from Him and onto myself and how I was being treated and how that made me feel. I trust you've picked up on that pattern I have been following.

That verse was just what I needed this morning, but the day wasn't over yet. After lunch, I was heading back to work and reached over to turn my volume up. I have XM radio and it stays on the Message (seriously they should have a package for one channel, because I subscribe JUST for that one channel apparently). Again, the song playing was not new to me. It's a song I've heard many times and a song that has "hit" me before, but once again in a different way today. I've even shared this song on the blog before. It's by Matthew West and the title is Forgiveness. I turned it up in the middle of the song. When I started listening, these words played:

Even when a jury and a judge
Say you've got a right to hold a grudge
It's the whisper in your ear saying
"Set it free"

I began to sob so uncontrollably I had to stop at the gas station I was passing. Again, I can't even describe how much I needed to hear this. I've been constantly praying about a situation and God is always faithful to answer. The problem was I was listening to everyone around me instead of the answer He was giving.

Now, I have to give a shout out to the pretty lady in all of these pictures with me. God brought this lovely lady and I together through the youth group at our church and we've been best friends ever since--even though she lives hours away, when we talk it's like we haven't missed anything. I can be so upset and she can make me laugh--she doesn't even know it sometimes--like when I think about us riding in her jeep with the top off singing "She's in Love with the Boy" as loud as we possibly could with bandanas on our heads (because a church Easter egg hunt is serious business--had to be there). She's my voice of sanity when I'm upset and "venting" and she's full of words of wisdom. She's in love with Jesus and portrays that in her daily life. I couldn't ask for a better friend, sister, and amazing person in general. Love you Steph (or Stepabie as Audrey affectionately calls you)


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