Saturday, November 3, 2012

A Little Bit of Everything

Baby Barrett Doll
This post is exactly what it says it is--a little bit of everything. I was on the road a good bit today and had time to think a lot, so I'm getting it out now. I read this quote this morning and it hit me because it has so much truth to it:

“The amount of time on earth matters very little: a man can live in greed and pride 90 years and never find God, know Him or accomplish His Plan. A stillborn baby on the other hand, teaches people to love, brings people to the Lord, teaches us the tenuous nature of life and teaches us a faith that those who have not suffered loss can never know. A child not even breathing for an hour, can have an impact greater than a famous preacher. The purpose of a life is not ours to decide nor in our hands: it is brought about by God.” -Author Unknown

I read this and I immediately thought of my Barrett. He never took a breath on earth, but the impact he has had has been greater than anything I could ever dream of doing. I am merely a part of his journey and what God is doing through him. How many times do we take our life for granted--each day for granted? I am so guilty of this. We're not guaranteed tomorrow or even the rest of the day. Are you making the most of every day? 

I took it for granted that in January I would be holding my living, breathing son--but in an instant he was gone. He is a constant reminder to me to stop and notice the little things and to be thankful for them. Everyday. Not just once a year. Everyone is posting each day of November what they are thankful for and that is great. But here is my challenge to you: Keep it going. Why stop with November? I challenge you to do it 365 days. 

So, onto my next thought today while driving. I heard the song You Are  by Colton Dixon and honestly I wasn't paying much attention until the end of it when some lyrics caught my attention:

If I had no voice,
If I had no tongue,
I would dance for you like the rising sun.
And when that day comes and I see your face.
I will shout your endless glorious praise.

Once again, I immediately thought of Barrett and so many other angels I have come to know through their moms and dads. I thought of what they are doing now--worshiping our Lord and Savior. I was also convicted. Do I have the attitude present in these lyrics? I have no reason to not be constantly worshiping like my Barrett is. Instead, I have every reason to make everything I do an opportunity for worship. 

The last thing in this post is a surprise we got for Audrey. She misses a brother a lot and talks about him to us often. Another angel mom gave me the idea for a Cabbage Patch doll. I ordered a little blonde haired baby boy and had them name him Barrett with her brother's birthday. I am hoping it will help her to have something to hold on to. When I handed him to her and told her his name she said "His name is Barrett just like my brother! Daddy his name is Barrett like our baby in heaven!". I love my kids. 


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