Sunday, September 9, 2012


As I have told you many times, I have been overwhelmed the last 2 weeks with the outpouring of love that we have felt. So many times I have been asked "How are you doing?". At first I would say alright or OK. Yesterday, someone asked me and without even thinking I said "good". They just stared at me like they were wondering if I meant it. Then, I began to question it myself. Am I really good? Or did I just say that out of habit?

I spent a good while thinking about this and I realized that I said that because it was true. I hurt and I cry. But I also rejoice and give thanks. I hurt because I don't have my son here, but how amazing is it that he never had to suffer through anything on this earth? He went straight from the safety of my womb to praising our Creator in heaven. While it is hard on us here on earth, what a life he had!

I have felt closer to God the past two weeks than I ever have in my life. When there is nothing on earth I can cling to, I cling to Him. I rejoice that I have a Savior who has brought so much joy to me in such a time of sorrow. I rejoice that I have a Savior who is carrying me through this trial and cares about what I am going through. I am thankful for a Savior who gave everything to save us.

Rejoice always.

1 Thessalonians 5:16 

Though I may tear up when you ask me this, I sincerely mean what I say when I tell you that I am doing "good". The more I thought about it though, I realized I am more than good. I am blessed. I have a beautiful daughter, a loving husband, a beautiful son in heaven, an amazing family in Christ, and a Savior who saved me by His grace. I am beyond blessed. I don't have anything to complain about.

Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

James 1:2-4



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