Saturday, September 1, 2012

Dread

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit, let us also walk by the Spirit.

Galatians 5:22-25



Lately, I have been dreading a lot of things. I dread walking by the empty baby room every day knowing my precious Barrett will never use it. I dread going out in public and running into someone who doesn't know about our loss. I dread putting on that brave face when people ask me about my son. I dread going back to the doctor, because I am scared we may never know what happened to Barrett, and also because part of me is scared of what they may find. I dread January when all I will be able to think about is that we should be hustling around getting ready for Barrett.

Today, I was thinking about all these things I have been worrying about just the last week. How much of my time have I spent worrying about things and living in dread, instead of trusting in God? What made me sad, was when I realized that every moment I spent thinking about those things, was a moment of joy that I lost. Fear just breeds more fear.

For this very reason, make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue, and virtue with knowledge, and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with steadfastness, and steadfastness with godliness, and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love.

2 Peter 1:5-7

After I realized how much of my joy I let dread steal from me in the past week, I began to think about how I do that on a daily basis. I dread washing the dishes. I dread bathing the dog. I dread having to mop the floor. I was floored when I realized how much of my time I spend doing that each day. 2 Timothy reminds us that God has given us a spirit of self-control. How we look at a situation or task, is totally up to us. We choose what attitude to have about each thing we do every day. 

for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.

2 Timothy 1:7

We have to make up our minds to face everything with a positive attitude. When we don't, we lose moments of joy.

Then I said to you, "Do not be in dread or afraid of them. The Lord your God who goes before you will Himself fight for you, just as He did for you in Egypt before your eyes, and in the wilderness, where you have seen how the Lord your God carried you, as a man carries his son, all the way that you went until you came to this place."

Deuteronomy 1:29-31

When you dread doing something, you are basically expecting an unpleasant experience. You allow no room for the thought that it could be positive. Dread can really sneak up on us and steal our joy because everyone does it all the time, so we rarely think about it.

When you think about faith, you probably think about looking forward to something good, right? So, what role should dread have in your life as a believer if it is causing you to always expect something negative? It shouldn't have a role at all. It is just another way that the devil steals our joy.

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