Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Another Year Older

Tomorrow is my birthday. I was supposed to be celebrating with my family, laughing and happy thinking about what this new year would bring. Instead, I'm wishing tomorrow didn't exist. When people have asked me what I want to do for my birthday, my answer has been nothing  or pretend it doesn't exist. There is no way I feel like celebrating at all.

On top of that, I go back to the doctor tomorrow. Just another reminder that my son is gone. When they gave me my appointment, I immediately noticed the irony. I'm not trying to be a "Debbie Downer" or anything, but doing something for my birthday is the last thing I want to do right now.

The more I thought about it, I thought maybe I was being a little harsh. People are just trying to be nice and help, and I'm cutting them off. So I thought about it, and I know what I want for my birthday.

If you want to do something for me for my birthday tomorrow, make a difference in the life of someone. Volunteer, do a good deed, help someone out, share the Gospel, do something and do it in memory of my son. Even the smallest thing can make a huge difference in someone's life. Even if you just slow down and take the time to listen to someone who needs to talk, or pick a penny up for someone in the grocery store, you never know what that small act of kindness can do for someone. If you have the time, volunteer to help out with something--serve at a soup kitchen, read to a child, or help out at a church. Find something you can do to help someone out in memory of Barrett Luker. That's what I want for my birthday--God has done so much through Barrett's life and I want to see what happens when we pay it forward.

I can't wait to hear from you all and I hope this blesses you as much as or more than it blesses the person you stop to take some time with.

Love you all and praying for you constantly--

 The eye cannot say to the hand, “I don’t need you!” And the head cannot say to the feet, “I don’t need you!” On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, and the parts that we think are less honorable we treat with special honor. And the parts that are unpresentable are treated with special modesty,while our presentable parts need no special treatment. But God has put the body together, giving greater honor to the parts that lacked it, so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it.

1 Corinthians 12:21-26

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